I'm Kanney, if you haven't figured that out already; I'm just an 18 year old girl from California who comes here to talk about life among other things. If you need to contact me for whatever reason then email me at: kanneybby@gmail.com
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
it's getting late, you see ... we've been here before @ 1:14 AM
i'm back to where i use to be, feeling lonely again. i've never been this stressed and disconnected for this amount of time. i hate how i can't talk to you, or even anyone about what i keep bottled in. i hate how i regret telling you even a half of a half of what i'm going through. why can't i tell you (or anyone) anything? i hate how i don't want to get close to you, or anyone for that matter. i hate how i can't sleep at night anymore ...
but most importantly i hate feeling like i'm all alone.
i honestly feel like i have no one to talk to anymore. it's like everyone (okay, mostly everyone) has disappointed me one way or another and i'm just fucking fed up. i'm tired of having shitty nights in a row .. at some point i just want it to be over and done with. way too much has been going on these past couple of weeks ... shit .. these past couple of months. i don't know if it's the expectations i hold or whatever but somehow for some reason i'm just ... tired of this shit. and i'm just .. not .. happy. i'm not satisfied anymore. and .. deep down inside ... i don't want to realize that it's because of you.
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. i refuse to cry anymore tonight.
peace.