Tuesday, April 27, 2010

i've come to the conclusion that there are certain people in my life that really don't belong there. these past couple of days have really been my judgement day. but the real question is whether or not i'm going to do something about it. i've been thinking way too into things lately and i haven't slept in 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 .. hours. my mind is shot right now. i just can't think about anything else. i don't want to be frustrated anymore. but really though, why is it that certain people will only talk to you when they need something from or out of you? what happened to the real, genuine, sincere people in the world? it makes me reconsider how many friends/people in my life who are actually there because they care enough to be. it's the actuality of the thought that really turns me off from people period. it's like having a teacher that's just in the profession for the money. so many people today rely on the WIFM (what's in it for me?) when that's not what it should be about. relationships/friendships/what have you in my personal opinion should be about giving and taking in equal amounts. instead of crawling into my life begging, pleading, asking for shit. how pathetic can you be, seriously. i'm just ... overwhelmed, honestly. i really need to sleep. but there's so much i can't get off my mind. there's just a couple of things on my plate that haven't been satisfying me lately and i don't know what i'm supposed to do with them right now. i'm just at a loss for words.

it's been a pretty upsetting couple of days.
*note: this post and last are not related.

night?