Sunday, January 31, 2010

i'm getting fed up with this bs. i don't feel like i should have to deal with this nor do i feel like i deserve any of this at all. i can't help but bring myself to think that this is just all a game and that i'm just on the outside of everything. i feel like maybe i'm not being taken seriously anymore. i'm just so irritated right now .. y'know. this week has seriously been some sort of constant cycle of disappointments. and i'm sick of it. fuck trying to be optimistic. in favor of optimism i should probably get rid of what i feel is ... making me feel this way in the first place. i know for a fact if i keep going i'm going to end up making it obvious as to what i'm talking about ... so i'm going to call it a night ... err .. morning .. whatever.



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