Monday, September 7, 2009

my day was pretty nice considering i didn't go anywhere.
but my night was .. just. awful.
sighs.

i'm growing to hate you.



I've come to realize that I need;
to stop getting stuck behind obstacles.

I've come to realize that I deserve;
better.

I've come to realize that I have lost;
my sense of nirvana.

I've come to realize that I hate it when;
people let me down or take advantage of me.

I've come to realize that money;
can't buy me happiness.

I've come to realize that I'll always have;
the ability to be strong in weak situations.

I've come to realize that my sibling(s);
are what families are made of.

I've come to realize that my mom;
makes rocks into diamonds.

I've come to realize that my dad;
can't be fixed.

I've come to realize that my cell phone;
keeps me close to the world.

I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning;
i thought today should be a good day.

I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep;
i still couldn't clear my mind.

I've come to realize that I am;
trying not to let things hold me down.

I've come to realize that today;
there are no expectations.

I've come to realize that tomorrow;
will be a new day.

I've come to realize that I really want to;
get away.

I've come to realize that this upcoming weekend;
i have no plans.

I've realized the best music to listen to when I am upset is;
floetry, musiqsoulchild, the frey, & linkin park.

I've come to realize that some of my friends;
don't belong in my life.

I've come to realize that this year;
has had it's ups and downs. but through all the negative parts
of this year, i've grown and learned from them.

I've come to realize that maybe I should;
stay focused on my goals.

I've come to realize that I love;
... idk anymore. you see, because. when you love something
sometimes it goes wrong, doesn't happen the way you want it,
disappears/goes missing, evolves into something you don't want.
something you don't need. something you can live with or without.

I've come to realize that certain people;
will never change & won't grow up.

I've come to realize that I don't understand;
the circumstances of my life.

I've come to realize my past;
will always be a part of me, no matter what.
and through everything .. i would never want
to change it.

I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified;
that as i get older i'll grow with resentment.

I've come to realize that my life;
will get better.



i see your face almost every day,
but now, i'm starting to realize that
i'm no longer able to put a name to it.