Sunday, August 2, 2009

gosh. i swear people are so lame. i hope they know that they officially lost me as a person. it's ridiculous how stupid i feel right now tho. i'm not even sure why i keep trying. it's almost as if everyone's (not literally everyone ... i'm just venting) letting me down in one way or another. so as of now, i quit. until someone can prove to me that they're honestly different ... if that wish can't be fufilled then from this point on i don't think i need any more people in my life. rawr. people can be such shitheads sometimes. and it's weird cus you never understand WHY this happens. but sometimes you KNOW it's happening. like wth. why am i so oblivious to reality. i know it's happening. but it's like some continuous ritual with me or something. i'm so naive. i still can't believe i was so stupid. it's like you can take so many steps towards something to have the very ground you're walking on be taken from beneath you. so it's basically like. you put so much work and effort toward something FOR NOTHING.
i can't wait 'till i'm past this obstacle ... well i feel better enough to sleep i guess. i'm supposed to be up n ready by 630am.

oo how I wish I can flip a switch to turn back the hands of time;;
peace.