Thursday, July 23, 2009

i feel pretty content with whatever's thrown my way right now. for reasons i can't even describe. which is a good thing. i don't feel like i need certain things anymore. or certain people anymore. a while ago i was thinking about my dream the other night. basically it starts out where me and this person (there was no face) were in bed, and these cop-like people walk in and the person beside me gets up and i get up and start running. i'm being chased for the majority of the dream. but it's weird cus the whole time i don't really even know what's going on. i'm just running. and i continue running. and right when i'm about to stop running that's when i wake up. it was the most craziest thing. and i have no idea what it meant and who was beside me. i remember my friend moni told me that there's a high possibility that when i dream about someone without a face but have like ... a "protective" role in my dreams then that's my guardian angel. he told me that the reason he doesn't have a face is because i haven't quite met him yet. therefore he yearns to protect me although at times in my dreams he can't as much as he wants to? i don't know. it was some deep stuff. on a different note, last night someone told me that i'm a little "advanced" for my age. haha. a lot of people tend to tell me that. i was just forced to grow up at a young age, that's all. now-a-days i'll look at movies and try and envision what my future's going to look like. it's weird how time passes quicker than you think. before you know it everything's going to be different. i'm not sure if i'm ready for that yet. i know for sure overtime i will be though. i read my horoscope about half an hour ago and it told me that i need to express my feelings sometime this month. so .. idk. i know that's not going to happen yet tho. uhm. oh. man. last night was probably one of the worst moods i've been in in a while? it was really strange cus it all kinda came so suddenly. and i kinda just felt like a hermit. mm .. i don't know. i don't feel like that now so it's okay. oh. last night while i was sleeping my ex called me. lol. the conversation we had definitely made me grateful for who i am now. i feel sorry for him.

k i'll come back to this another time. listening to india.arie right now. :)
Speak words of beauty and you will be there
No matter what anybody says
What matters most is what you think of yourself