Sunday, July 26, 2009

suck balls. i don't know like .. with a combination of what happened last night and the situation today just blah. i don't know. like. my mind's kinda racing right now ... just a lot on my mind. i'm listening to eminem's song rock bottom. i hate how i keep stopping n starting this entry. it's like i have what i want to say then i lose it and come up with another thing on my mind. but i don't know ... i'm feeling kind of apathetic right now. one of my friends who's kind of abandoned our friendship wants to come back into my life after so long. i don't really know what to do? cus i'd never do that to a friend. and it's definitely not like we can go from where we once were. and we're never going to be the way we were. n then there's a whole buncha other shit ... idk .. i hate people sometimes. i hate my life sometimes ... i feel like a turtle who's just trynna retreat back into their shell. you know when a turtle keeps getting shit dumped on 'em and stuff and they just want to hide? but ah .. i'm not reclusive tho. i just feel kinda off my axis. this week's been something else ... and i'm really glad it's over. i'm going to try and stay positive. "when you feel like you've had it up to hear, cus you're mad enough to scream but you sad enough to tearrr .. that's rock bottom"