Thursday, July 23, 2009

i remember a friend of a friend who's a monk once said that we're actually living in hell. i'm not too sure if i believe what he was saying tho. i do respect monks but those ideas are just way beyond us at this point obviously. i like to keep things realistic. anyways. don't feel like thinking that deep right now. haha, i remember when i was a kid and my first best friend ... olivia called me a backstabber. lol. our friendship escalated in a downward spiral at that point. we separated midyear of middle school. we were pretty close in elementary school. i remember she went to hj(high school) for like three years? or something. i don't know. i always think back .. not just with her. but generally. if i kept certain people in my life ... would my life have been any different than what it is now? the thought of that makes me think a lot. cus i mean. like many other people i knew who changed ... would i have been changing with them for the better? i don't know. i live by the church i went with her to. and i still remember her house number. lol. it's crazy how fast things can happen. within a year people can go through so much. life is so crazy sometimes. i remember each and every person in my life. and exactly whom of those people who left. i remember each and every memory. lol. from the point of being 5 and on of course. it's weird. my aussie friend told me i'm blessed with a good memory? but i don't know. i just figure it allows me to tell a lot of stories. i remember back whennnnn i was a kid. i was like 5. and i was soo hungry. and everyone at my house was sleeping. i ended up finding like two quarters on the ground of the living room floor back at my old house so i got my clothes on. and i don't know why .. but i couldn't find my shoes so i just left without any shoes on and walked up to jacks which was like ... 5 blocks? away straight ahead and directly on the right. i walked in there and bought some iced oatmeal cookies and walked back home. when i went inside everyone was still sleep. lol. it was like i never even left. i liked the little childhood i had then where i was sooo carefree. i think it'd be cool if animals had a voice. you know what i mean? like if my cat cheddar could tell me what's on his mind ... or what he wants. his meows sound like words sometimes. like he's actually trying to talk to me. :) animals have a way with communication. hahaha. i think that's why i like them so much. well yeah ... that's enough thinking for now.

until i come back to this.

peace.