Sunday, March 15, 2009

i feel like i'm being a kid right now. i have a reason for not talking to her tho. she's always brushing me off whenever i'm talking to her about something and i hate that shit. she ALWAYS does it. whenever i reaaaally need someone to talk to (which i try to make as rare as possible), and i'd go to her, the majority of the time she hardly ever listens. yet when i stop telling her stuff she gets all pissyfaced because she feels all left out of the loop. i figure, if you don't want to listen to what i have to say then i think it's in my best interest if i don't speak on my behalf. why bother. but it's like ... the last time i talked to her i really needed someone to confide in. and she just wasn't having it. and the sucky part about all of this is whenever she needed someone i was there for her 100% - EVEN when we first met in math class when i shoulda been paying attention to the lesson plan i was stilllll there for her. even if she needed to talk on the phone ... i was ALWAYS there for her. and i always stayed up until i knew she was okay. maybe i'm just asking too much of her. but i really needed her last time cus she's the only one i know who knows about it. sighs. i'ma go talk to her.