I'm Kanney, if you haven't figured that out already; I'm just an 18 year old girl from California who comes here to talk about life among other things. If you need to contact me for whatever reason then email me at: kanneybby@gmail.com
Thursday, March 12, 2009
case of the crazies? @ 9:28 PM
it was weird, like for the past two hours i felt like i was losing my mind. my head was spinning, i had a headache, and my body was aching. i've just been so frustrated lately. i'm not going to talk about it here tho. i just had to ... step away from everything. i was writing in my notebook a few minutes ago.
sighs.
i feel like screaming right now.
just at the top of my lungs.
but my throat hurts.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. aside from the negative,
i noticed that i've always wanted to burn that notebook. it has stuff about my ex in it. when we first met, how shitty he made me feel, when we broke up, the aftermath. but then it's like ... those moments made me who i am today. and if things didn't fall apart between me and him, and with myself, i wouldn't know the people i know today. and i wouldn't be having me a boothang who i talk to all throughout the day, every day. who makes amazing beats, and shares cool music with me. but not only that. but like, i know i can be open with this person cus i know for a fact i have problems with doing that when it comes to people, and trust is definitely an issue for me because i'm so afraid of someone taking advantage of that. fortunately, i don't feel those fears with my boothang. i know he accepts me for me. and not once have i ever asked him to. that's something i just really appreciate about him. his genuineness means a lot to me. there's nothing i love more than spending time with him. he feels so real to me. we really do have a sweet and innocent kinda thing going on. and there's not a day that goes by where i don't appreciate what i have. things this great don't come twice in a lifetime. i feel like i can just talk for days and days and days about how good he makes me feel. sighs this guy's a keeper.
OH, i bought a new wallet. =) i think it's so cute. my mom says it looks unique. haha it has a butterfly on it and stuff. i'm feeling a little more content compared to how i was at first when i was typing this. there was this quote i stumbled upon when i was at school. "To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven." I just love it. I love quotes. They allow you to go beyond what you're reading, to where you actually find meaning in something that can look like a bunch of words. When that's truly not their initial purpose. Words are so powerful.
sighs.
i feel like screaming right now.
just at the top of my lungs.
but my throat hurts.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. aside from the negative,
i noticed that i've always wanted to burn that notebook. it has stuff about my ex in it. when we first met, how shitty he made me feel, when we broke up, the aftermath. but then it's like ... those moments made me who i am today. and if things didn't fall apart between me and him, and with myself, i wouldn't know the people i know today. and i wouldn't be having me a boothang who i talk to all throughout the day, every day. who makes amazing beats, and shares cool music with me. but not only that. but like, i know i can be open with this person cus i know for a fact i have problems with doing that when it comes to people, and trust is definitely an issue for me because i'm so afraid of someone taking advantage of that. fortunately, i don't feel those fears with my boothang. i know he accepts me for me. and not once have i ever asked him to. that's something i just really appreciate about him. his genuineness means a lot to me. there's nothing i love more than spending time with him. he feels so real to me. we really do have a sweet and innocent kinda thing going on. and there's not a day that goes by where i don't appreciate what i have. things this great don't come twice in a lifetime. i feel like i can just talk for days and days and days about how good he makes me feel. sighs this guy's a keeper.
OH, i bought a new wallet. =) i think it's so cute. my mom says it looks unique. haha it has a butterfly on it and stuff. i'm feeling a little more content compared to how i was at first when i was typing this. there was this quote i stumbled upon when i was at school. "To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven." I just love it. I love quotes. They allow you to go beyond what you're reading, to where you actually find meaning in something that can look like a bunch of words. When that's truly not their initial purpose. Words are so powerful.