Wednesday, February 4, 2009

it's weird. months of torment. and everything else. suddenly don't really matter anymore at this point. i'm confused and i probably shouldn't really be writing anything at this current moment. but i will, cus apparently i won't be getting any sleep anytime soon i mean c'mon now .. it's already 1249am. i wonder what getting sucked up in a black hole feels like. i hear it's like being ripped apart. that's insane for such a "being" to have so much power. it's crazy. outer space scares me sometimes. many people have said that we're the only living creatures out there. oh? really? i mean, c'mon let's do the math here. there's 9 planets in our solar system. there's about 400 planets known to orbit other stars ... but that's just an educated guess. there's millions of planets out there. i hear scientists are trying to find another planet for us to create life on supposedly they've chosen mars the only problem with that is that we just have to put some trees on it so we can create some oxygen.
okay, see how crazy i can become? i'm over here ranting about outer space and a possible answer to all of our future dreams at 101am when that wasn't even my true intentions of writing in the first place. all in all, i'm feeling a little lost right now. i know exactly where this is going which is why i tried avoiding it for so long. tried to act numb. nonchalant. but i knew it was still there. the issue was still of existence. maybe not the type we could all see. but it was there. in the the air. you could just feel it. feel it's tension. which is why i just can't come to understand it. this is infuriating. but it's only infuriating because i'm back where i started.