I'm Kanney, if you haven't figured that out already; I'm just an 18 year old girl from California who comes here to talk about life among other things. If you need to contact me for whatever reason then email me at: kanneybby@gmail.com
Saturday, February 14, 2009
hershey's chocolate @ 11:04 PM
what good are friends, really? my friend just got me in a bad mood. blahhhh and i was having such a good day too. she wanted to talk about something i just didn't want to think about. she knew i didn't want to talk about it. cus i haven't told her anything about it. yet she goes and brings it up. i knew she'd make me feel like shit about it. and she has - and i do.
sighs.
i think i'm supposed to live a lonely life - not a depressed lonely but a detached lonely - maybe that's why i truly hate getting close to people only to push them away.
i lost my best friend back in middle school. (not by death)
i lost my closest friend months ago. (not by death)
i don't have much of a social life anymore.
the only time i'm out of the house is when i'm volunteering my time or school.
(other than that i'm in my room)
i'm single.
(probably by choice. since i; put up so many walls, screwed up my chances, and acted a certain way on purpose - because i'm scared ... i'm absolutely terrified .. although there isssss a person in my life right now who's slowly taking away my fear. i'm not going to say his name cus he's the only person i share my blog with lol. they'll know by reading this. so i can prevent from embarrassing myself any further ...)
asdfghjkl.
i'm losing myself tonight.
survey;
Are you okay with the life you live?
its alright, but it could always be better.
What song's playing?
brandy - right here (departed)
Who's the last person you had talk about your life to?
jaybear.
Last person you told a secret to?
i don't tell my secrets.
What's up for tommorow?
absolutely nothinggg.
Do you wear makeup?
nope.
Would you run around a neighborhood at night without a shirt for 500 dollars?
no thanks. it's cold as cheese out there.
How many true friends you got?
two. possibly three.
Sing the song your listening to?
"i'll be righttt here with youuuu, you'll be right hereee with meee"
Are you sick?
just a cough.
Do you like who you are?
yeah. at times, no. but i deal.
Have you ever showered with someone?
yeahh. i was clothed and my intentions were to get warm.
Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
unfortunately.
How are you feeling right now?
shitty.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
mmhmm.
Are you listening to music right now?
of course.
Did you kiss anyone today?
no.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone & what did you talk about?
ex. what i like on hotwings? yeah .. it was pretty weird.
Do you curse in front of your parents?
nooo. unless i'm extremely pissed.
Is there something someone should know about?
idk, probably.
Last time you saw fireworks,with who & where?
fourth of july last year. with my fambam + ken.
Who pissed you off yesterday?
... idr.
Have you ever fell asleep in someones arms?
no. =/
Do you know anyone who is pregnant?
yeah.
Does anyone hate you?
probably, who cares.
Do you have anything that belongs to your boyfriend/ girlfriend ?
dont have a boyfriend.
Do you have nice eyes?
well, i like them. :)
Were you happy when you woke up?
i was alright.
Do you think that you have made a difference in someones life?
i hope.
Who was the last person that called you?
ex.
When was the last time you were sick?
last week.
How many swim suits do you own?
two?
Do you own anything from American Eagle?
yeah.
Do you listen to rap/hip-hop?
mmhmm.
Do you like hugs and kisses?
i loveee hugs & kisses.
Who was the last person to make you smile?
jaybear.
Have you ever gone on a date?
nope.
Have you ever held hands?
nopee.
Have you ever skinny dipped?
no one wants to see that. lolol
Have you ever drank alcohol?
nope.
Have you ever gotten drunk?
absolutely not.
Have you ever cheated on a test in school?
haha, oh c'mon who hasn't?
Have you ever cut a class at school?
mmhmm.
Have you ever gotten in a fist fight?
kinda.
Have you ever smoked cigarettes?
nopeee.
Have you ever smoked pot?
no, i have not.
Have you ever been suspended?
no.
Have you ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
no.
Have you ever cheated on a partner?
i would never.
Have you trespassed?
probably.
Have you ever made someone bleed?
i hope not.
Ever walk in on your parents or sibling having sex?
loll, no.
Have you ever yelled at your principal in school?
nope.
Have you ever told someone, outside your family, you loved them seriously?
yeah, but apparently i was stupid.
Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?
noooo.
What is your best friends name?
i don't have any.
What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
yellow.
Whats your favorite number?
four.
What was the last thing you ate?
some chocolate i found.
If you were a crayon what color would you be?
blue.
How is the weather right now?
gloomy. cold. rainy?
The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
sense of humor. i gotta be able to laugh.
Do you have a significant other?
nooo.
Favorite TV show?
reno911, law&order, jon & kate + 8
Siblings?
two sisters, one brother.
Height?
5'5 last time i checked.
Hair color?
dk brown.
Eye Color?
dk brown.
What was the last movie you watched?
taken.
Are you too shy to ask someone out?
lol yeah.
Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
no, i'll crush my brains ...
Hugs or kisses?
hugs please. =)
Chocolate or Vanilla?
depends on what it is.
What books are you reading?
my friend leonard, broken china
Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
buttered & salted.
Dogs or cats?
cats.
Favorite flower?
tulips & sunflowers.
Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
noooo.
Have you ever fired a gun?
nopeeee.
Do you like to travel by plane?
hell no.
Right-handed or Left-handed?
right. =)
How many pillows do you sleep with?
three + one long one i never cuddle with.
Are you missing someone?
sure.
Anybody on myspace that you'd go on a date with?
maybe.
sighs.
i think i'm supposed to live a lonely life - not a depressed lonely but a detached lonely - maybe that's why i truly hate getting close to people only to push them away.
i lost my best friend back in middle school. (not by death)
i lost my closest friend months ago. (not by death)
i don't have much of a social life anymore.
the only time i'm out of the house is when i'm volunteering my time or school.
(other than that i'm in my room)
i'm single.
(probably by choice. since i; put up so many walls, screwed up my chances, and acted a certain way on purpose - because i'm scared ... i'm absolutely terrified .. although there isssss a person in my life right now who's slowly taking away my fear. i'm not going to say his name cus he's the only person i share my blog with lol. they'll know by reading this. so i can prevent from embarrassing myself any further ...)
asdfghjkl.
i'm losing myself tonight.
survey;
Are you okay with the life you live?
its alright, but it could always be better.
What song's playing?
brandy - right here (departed)
Who's the last person you had talk about your life to?
jaybear.
Last person you told a secret to?
i don't tell my secrets.
What's up for tommorow?
absolutely nothinggg.
Do you wear makeup?
nope.
Would you run around a neighborhood at night without a shirt for 500 dollars?
no thanks. it's cold as cheese out there.
How many true friends you got?
two. possibly three.
Sing the song your listening to?
"i'll be righttt here with youuuu, you'll be right hereee with meee"
Are you sick?
just a cough.
Do you like who you are?
yeah. at times, no. but i deal.
Have you ever showered with someone?
yeahh. i was clothed and my intentions were to get warm.
Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
unfortunately.
How are you feeling right now?
shitty.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
mmhmm.
Are you listening to music right now?
of course.
Did you kiss anyone today?
no.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone & what did you talk about?
ex. what i like on hotwings? yeah .. it was pretty weird.
Do you curse in front of your parents?
nooo. unless i'm extremely pissed.
Is there something someone should know about?
idk, probably.
Last time you saw fireworks,with who & where?
fourth of july last year. with my fambam + ken.
Who pissed you off yesterday?
... idr.
Have you ever fell asleep in someones arms?
no. =/
Do you know anyone who is pregnant?
yeah.
Does anyone hate you?
probably, who cares.
Do you have anything that belongs to your boyfriend/ girlfriend ?
dont have a boyfriend.
Do you have nice eyes?
well, i like them. :)
Were you happy when you woke up?
i was alright.
Do you think that you have made a difference in someones life?
i hope.
Who was the last person that called you?
ex.
When was the last time you were sick?
last week.
How many swim suits do you own?
two?
Do you own anything from American Eagle?
yeah.
Do you listen to rap/hip-hop?
mmhmm.
Do you like hugs and kisses?
i loveee hugs & kisses.
Who was the last person to make you smile?
jaybear.
Have you ever gone on a date?
nope.
Have you ever held hands?
nopee.
Have you ever skinny dipped?
no one wants to see that. lolol
Have you ever drank alcohol?
nope.
Have you ever gotten drunk?
absolutely not.
Have you ever cheated on a test in school?
haha, oh c'mon who hasn't?
Have you ever cut a class at school?
mmhmm.
Have you ever gotten in a fist fight?
kinda.
Have you ever smoked cigarettes?
nopeee.
Have you ever smoked pot?
no, i have not.
Have you ever been suspended?
no.
Have you ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
no.
Have you ever cheated on a partner?
i would never.
Have you trespassed?
probably.
Have you ever made someone bleed?
i hope not.
Ever walk in on your parents or sibling having sex?
loll, no.
Have you ever yelled at your principal in school?
nope.
Have you ever told someone, outside your family, you loved them seriously?
yeah, but apparently i was stupid.
Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?
noooo.
What is your best friends name?
i don't have any.
What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
yellow.
Whats your favorite number?
four.
What was the last thing you ate?
some chocolate i found.
If you were a crayon what color would you be?
blue.
How is the weather right now?
gloomy. cold. rainy?
The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
sense of humor. i gotta be able to laugh.
Do you have a significant other?
nooo.
Favorite TV show?
reno911, law&order, jon & kate + 8
Siblings?
two sisters, one brother.
Height?
5'5 last time i checked.
Hair color?
dk brown.
Eye Color?
dk brown.
What was the last movie you watched?
taken.
Are you too shy to ask someone out?
lol yeah.
Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
no, i'll crush my brains ...
Hugs or kisses?
hugs please. =)
Chocolate or Vanilla?
depends on what it is.
What books are you reading?
my friend leonard, broken china
Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
buttered & salted.
Dogs or cats?
cats.
Favorite flower?
tulips & sunflowers.
Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
noooo.
Have you ever fired a gun?
nopeeee.
Do you like to travel by plane?
hell no.
Right-handed or Left-handed?
right. =)
How many pillows do you sleep with?
three + one long one i never cuddle with.
Are you missing someone?
sure.
Anybody on myspace that you'd go on a date with?
maybe.