Monday, January 26, 2009

who am i really?
i'm someone who
doesn't deserve anything in life.
i'm someone who
doesn't like being thanked.
i'm someone who
will sacrifice myself in order to benefit others.
i'm someone who
absorbs other people's happiness to reflect it as my own.
along with pain.
i'm someone who
can't live without music.
i'm someone who
sometimes pushes ppl away when i feel they get too close.
i'm someone who
has a hard time trusting other ppl.
i'm someone who
bottles everything up inside.
i'm someone who's
found with bitemarks on my lips from holding things back.
i'm someone who
can't stand hurting others.
i'm someone who
has a hard time letting ppl go.
i'm someone who
beats myself up for saying the wrong things.
i'm someone who's
afraid of dying, but thought about it so many times.
i'm someone who
thinks about my choices before i do them.
i'm someone who
shys away from taking risks, but won't let my fears get in the way.
i'm someone who
loves and hates being alone at the same time.
i'm someone who's
not sure if i'm needing & wanting something in my life.
i'm someone who
needs someone there for me.
i'm someone who
needs constant friends.
i'm someone who
hates to be taken for granted.
i'm someone who
hates being misused or misrepresented.
i'm someone who
just might need a second chance at things.
i'm someone who
hasn't fully experienced the life outside these walls.

this prison.

i'm not trying to come off sounding all sad or depressed.
it's just there's so much in my head that a lot of ppl hardly ever get
the chance to hear. so what better way to get it all out than on here?

i'm just someone who is still trying to find myself.
but wouldn't mind if you joined in on the process.